Jackie "Turn The Struggle Into A Positive"

  Photography by    Randy Bacon

Photography by Randy Bacon

I noticed sometime in October 2017 that I was not seeing very well, especially at night. I had Lasik eye surgery done in 2003. I had always heard that after ten years you sometimes need a touch up. While I was home for Thanksgiving, I asked my mom, who is a school nurse, to check my vision. My left eye was 20/40 and my right eye was 20/30. She told me I should probably go to the eye doctor. 

Then I noticed in basketball practices that I had to really focus in order to catch a ball coming from across the court. For a college basketball coach who had been playing the game my whole life, this was unusual. My depth perception seemed off. This started to bother me. 

I had not signed up for vision coverage on my insurance this year, so I thought maybe I would wait until the following year to go see the doctor. I decided to flip a coin. I know this sounds crazy, but I have a system of flipping best two out of three when I cannot decide on something. 

Twenty years earlier, that coin helped me decide between playing basketball at Missouri State (then Southwest Missouri State) or UConn. It turned out to be right. I chose Missouri State, where I played four seasons and returned as an assistant coach in 2013. With the help of an amazing group of coaches, teammates and other supporters, I finished my college career as the NCAA’s all-time leading scorer, and we went to the Final Four my senior season in 2001. After that, I played professionally in the WNBA and in Australia. Eventually, I was inducted into the Women’s Basketball Hall of Fame.

  Photo courtesy of    Jackie Stiles

Photo courtesy of Jackie Stiles

  Photo courtesy of    Jackie Stiles

Photo courtesy of Jackie Stiles

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But cancer doesn’t care about your accomplishments. This time, that coin told me to go to the eye doctor. 

I then asked our secretary if she knew of any good eye doctors that could either do Lasik or put me into contacts. She sent me to Mattax Neu Prater in Springfield, Missouri. I called on a Monday and if I could not get in on our day off, which was Wednesday, then I was just going to wait. I knew my chances were slim. The secretary who took my phone call said it now gives her chills. Right before I called, she had a cancelation and was able to get me in on that Wednesday.

I headed to Mattax Neu Prater on December 13th to see Dr. Matt Smith. My intentions were that he would either put me in contacts or set up Lasik surgery. While there, they informed me that my left eye is 20/50 and my right eye is 20/30 and for some reason they cannot correct my left eye. They ended up doing two hours of tests and told me that they found a tumor in my left eye.

They scheduled me the next day to see their Retina Specialist. Dr. Neu told me that he had never diagnosed this before but he was almost positive that I had Ocular Melanoma. He told me that there were three main specialists in the country for this rare cancer and one of them was in St. Louis. Immediately I got in to see Dr. Brad Smith the next day. My mom drove six hours from my hometown of Claflin, Kansas, to Springfield on Thursday night. She and my former college roommate and teammate who is like a sister to me, drove me to St. Louis the next morning.

After four hours of testing, Dr. Smith confirmed that I had a tumor located behind my left eye and it was located on my optic nerve. He promptly and calmly proceeded to discuss all of the treatment options with me. He said if it was him he would do the plaque radiation. He strongly encouraged that I get a second opinion as well. I also had to get a CT scan of my chest, abdomen, and pelvic area. I had that scheduled for January 2nd. 

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I am fortunate that I have an uncle who is an eye surgeon in Kansas City. He thought it would be a good idea to get a second opinion in Philadelphia with Dr. Shields who has performed the most OM procedures of anyone in the country. Before making the trip to Philly, I got my scan results on the 2nd and the cancer had not spread. Thank goodness because the survival rates of OM drop dramatically if the cancer has already spread throughout the rest of the body...so much so that you could have only 2-8 months remaining of life.

I flew to Philly on January 7th and met my mom there. I saw Dr. Shields at 6am on Monday the 8th. Another four hours of testing and she concluded that my best form of treatment would be the plaque radiation. I had planned on staying there and having the procedure done on Thursday. To make a long story short, due to complications we weren’t expecting, I couldn’t get coverage from my insurance for the procedures. With that in mind, I flew home with my mom on Friday so I could regroup. It ended up being a blessing in disguise. The next week, I got back on Dr. Smith’s schedule in St. Louis. This was a big relief. Not only was I more comfortable with my treatment being three hours from home, but Dr. Smith’s care, compassion, and bedside manner confirmed he was the person that needed to treat me. He scheduled me to see my radiation oncologist, Dr. Edwards, on February 1st and then the plaque with the radiation seeds was inserted in my eye on February 2nd. 

Dr. Smith was very aware that I live an active lifestyle and still love the thrill of competition, which I get from coaching now that my playing days are over. He decided to cut out a notch in my plaque to not radiate my optic nerve directly. Without the notch it would have wiped out all of my forward line of site. After the plaque was in place, I went into the hospital and had a protective shield placed over my eye. I was to stay in the hospital in isolation until February 8th.

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I was allowed thirty minutes of visitors a day and could not leave my room. I was so sick that I did not want to move anyways. I was so grateful for my mom, my dad, my sister Roxanne, Carly and our good family friends in St. Louis for coming to visit me and for providing support for my mom. A few other close friends stopped in as well. 

I was worried that I would go stir crazy but I ended up way too sick to want to do anything. I finally started feeling a little better the last couple of days in the hospital. I brought along my road bike and had it on my trainer. I could not even think about getting on it until the last couple of days. I am addicted to working out; I never miss a day unless I am on my deathbed, if that tells you how brutal the treatment was.

I went back into surgery Thursday morning to have the radiation plaque removed. I bounced back quickly. I drove back to Springfield with my sister immediately after, returned to practice two days later, and was on the bench – eyepatch and all – for our game on Sunday the 11th, nine days after my initial surgery.

I wanted to try to miss as little as I could since we were in the middle of the season. I was also craving normalcy and I wanted to keep busy to take my mind off the situation. My first follow up with my eye doctor was in March. All he did at that appointment was test my vision and do an exam on my eye. My vision was 20/100, so I had lost quite a bit. The good news was that my right eye tested at 20/20. 

I went to see Dr. Smith on June 18th and he was able to scan the back of my eye at this point to see if the radiation was working. I still have orange pigment and fluid, which means active cancer cells, but it is going in the right direction. I had envisioned my tumor being gone at this point. It takes the radiation longer to work than I anticipated. My tumor will always be behind my eye, but eventually it will be dead. My vision had improved to 20/70. This will probably be the best it will be and then it will start to deteriorate for the next five years due to the radiation. Unfortunately, it is non-correctable.

In July, I was having this off and on debilitating pain right under my right rib cage. Normally, I would not be as worried about it if I did not know that ocular melanoma usually spreads to the liver. The pain I was having was right in that area. I even took myself to the ER one night after dealing with the pain since 9am. It was such a zoo in the ER that I decided to just go home. I texted our team doctor, Dr. Hough, and told him what was going on. He ordered an ultrasound and it showed that it was my gallbladder. I was never so relieved to hear that it was my gallbladder. I had it taken out the next day, and feel so much better physically and mentally! 

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I got my full body scans to make sure the cancer had not spread on August 2nd. My radiation oncologist Dr. Edwards called the next day to let me know that they were all clear. I will do this every six months. I am still very early in my cancer journey but it has already made me better for having gone through it. I was so touched and grateful for the outpour of support I received. I know I will never be able to pay it all back, but I will definitely pay it forward. I am pushing myself to do speaking events, even though public speaking is torture for me. 

If I can lift just one person up during these talks that might be going through adversity, then it is worth it. We all go through adversity and struggles, we just have to do our best to turn it into a positive. My basketball career has given me a platform. I have been contacted by numerous people that are either farther along in their OM journey or are just diagnosed. 

Since this is a rare cancer, many don’t know anyone else to turn to. It has been very fulfilling to provide support for each other as we walk through this journey together. I am also getting involved with Relay for Life to help raise money for our cause and want to do more. Maybe start a foundation in the future, I just don’t know exactly. I make relationships a priority and my faith continues to grow stronger. I am also much better about being present and enjoying this moment. That is all we are promised…


On Friday, October 19th benefitting the Springfield Relay For Life, Jackie Stiles will be running a 5K that day as part of her overall training and we are inviting you to run along with her and be #StrongLikeStiles. Get your friends together and run in the morning, at lunch, after work, whenever you want and wherever you want. Click HERE to register and support Jackie, with proceeds going to American Cancer Society.